Graduate School and Aaron

Graduate school applications are coming up and I am terrified. 
That means I have to have TOP NOTCH work and that leaves me wondering, "will it be enough to get accepted into anywhere cool?"
All the schools I'm applying too are the coolest kids on the block and to be accepted into any of them might feed my ego after initial celebration.

But speaking of Aaron, since his death I find myself wondering if he would approve of my work. I get concerned and sad to think of him judging my work and more or less sad because it's almost been 4 months since he has passed, but I have to keep going otherwise there was no point of all of this.

It's weird that death shaped me the way I am today: a little mixture of resilient and crazy.  Maybe even a hint of awkward because I don't know how to talk about my feelings. I guess that's probably why I am a little nuts. 

But future grad schools, if you are reading this, I am just a little nuts for art, as are you because you work at the school and must love art as much as I do, maybe even more. 
Also sorry for the unnecessary amount of commas. I'm not the best with grammer. 

Best,
artsy.