Hello Fellow blog viewers!

I'm sorry for not being as active. I usually forget that I have a blog on here and don't post much so that's my bad.

Some new beginnings since it's the new year (and new beginnings since graduation)!

I have my very own solo show this upcoming April 2018!
I started working as a freelance graphic design artist and business is booming!
Also, I started working for After School Matters (which is pretty top notch)
Grad school was a blast and I go back to Baltimore in January!

I'm stoked to see what else I'll be creating and will be reading a lot more this year to help further my art process. 

If there is any books you guys recommend for me to read as a feminist and artist, let me know!

hope to hear from you all soon!
-ArtsyFartsyRubi

Graduate school applications are coming up and I am terrified. 
That means I have to have TOP NOTCH work and that leaves me wondering, "will it be enough to get accepted into anywhere cool?"
All the schools I'm applying too are the coolest kids on the block and to be accepted into any of them might feed my ego after initial celebration.

But speaking of Aaron, since his death I find myself wondering if he would approve of my work. I get concerned and sad to think of him judging my work and more or less sad because it's almost been 4 months since he has passed, but I have to keep going otherwise there was no point of all of this.

It's weird that death shaped me the way I am today: a little mixture of resilient and crazy.  Maybe even a hint of awkward because I don't know how to talk about my feelings. I guess that's probably why I am a little nuts. 

But future grad schools, if you are reading this, I am just a little nuts for art, as are you because you work at the school and must love art as much as I do, maybe even more. 
Also sorry for the unnecessary amount of commas. I'm not the best with grammer. 

Best,
artsy.

Hello everyone!
It has been a while since I've written on here. I have had a very eventful summer.
​This summer, I lost my best friend Aaron (a little portrait of him playing the guitar is on my illustrator page titled "myrandomstory") and things have been different.
Different in the way where it feels a lot harder to do art.
However, I am pushing through it.
Wish me luck everyone
​-ArtsyFartsyRubi

Hello Everyone! I have not posted in a while! Sorry about that-life got in the way! But that is NO EXCUSE to not be making art and not maintaining my website!

That being said, THERE IS NEW ART! *huge audience claps* Wow, exciting!

If you check out the "Photography" page, you will see new photos add onto the page 
If you check out the new "Illustrator" button, you will start seeing commissions and more Illustrator digital art

Now, one of the commissions is NSFW, but don't let it discourage you from seeing the work! I have mastering the pen and I'm excited for new things!

SO COMMISSIONS
I have time to be working on commissions now, so you'll see my illustrator page filled with some commissions, but only the artistic freedoms go on there. I want to show you all my ideas when it comes to these commissions but I hope you all enjoy it!

TO WRAP UP: I've had a busy, but not so busy summer. Weird life events is the theme this summer but I won't let it stop me from doing my passion. So I hope you enjoy the new things and maybe....just maybe....look forward to a new painting sometime soon ;)

TILL NEXT TIME EVERYONE!
-rubi. 

Today was the coolest day of my life. Well...debatable, but still! It made my top 10.
I got to help with the Foundry pour and it was absolutely amazing!
Personally, I've never been a fan of sculpture. I think Im absolutely impatient for it, but today changed my perception of sculpture related works.
This Foundry Pour was absolutely amazing. I am BEYOND excited and soon enough, I'll be posting a photo of the result of my mold!
Look for more posts by me!
Goodbye everyone!
​-Rubi

Hello everyone! It has been a while, but since the last blog post, that class has ended  I am now in a relief class and it is sculptural (which I am not particularly good at). Because I am naturally aggressive, sculptural work requires me to "calm down" because my roughness (and maybe carelessness?) allows for more mistakes. 

But beyond that, I have continued with Illustrator work. I had an agreement with my professor that if I continued the work, I could still work in the mac lab. Her assignment was use 10 images I liked and recreate the poster. So far, I have 5 done but they might need improvement. 

They'll be posted to my website as soon as they are perfected. 3 of them is already on my page under "MISC", so check it out here and see my latest stuff! 

Till next time!

Hey Everyone! I’m back showing off my poster Art.
So, for this final assignment, we had to take one poster and recreate it, making it 90% alike to the poster.  The first poster I went with Grasset and recreated his poster.
For the second poster, we had to recreate 60% of the poster and I choseMoser and his beautiful poster. (I hate this one the most, mostly because I took the least amount of time trying to do anything cool)
For the final two, we could create “inspired” posters, so for the last two, I chose Grasset again and then Mucha. 
With my basic Illustrator skills, I did the best I could. I hope that you guys enjoy them! :)

(Also, I'm super jealous of my friend Kallie, who sits next to me. She is incredibly talented and puts my basic illustrator skills to shame. Check out her website here)

Hello everyone! 
I haven't posted in a while but now that it is the start of a new semester, I am part of two art classes this semester, which if you haven't read the title, I'd advise doing so.  That being said, I will start doing more graphic design-y things and more sculptural art, so I'll probably add a "Miscellaneous" page which will feature the side projects I do. I probably will change the "Drawing" option to the "Miscellaneous" because I'm not really a drawing person? Surprisingly so, because I doodle and draw in my sketchbook almost everyday. I never really found drawing to be something I really focus on and will allow my mediocre drawings to be jumbled in with the other types of art mediums I've done.  
Also, because it is the first day of classes, my social anxiety rises to almost dangerous levels. What do you mean I have to introduce myself and explain my major? I don't want everyone glaring at me and only think of me as the girl who paints boobs. I paint more than boobs people. I paint...other boring things. *shifty eyes*  It's always very awkward for me to have to say "Hi. Im Rubi. I'm an art major. I like painting. I wanna be as cool as Van Gogh.", because I almost expect someone to pounce on me and tell me I am shit and I am shitty for thinking I can be as good as him, as Godly as a figure as he is. 
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This upcoming year, I am going to focus my work on things I actually want to paint. I want to paint my beliefs and I want to have fun doing it in the style I find myself having the most fun. I will be coming up with more ideas and I'm looking forward to painting new things! But I'm also scared that it's not gonna hit the viewer with raw emotion. Maybe I'll learn how to create emotion with my paintings, but how do you create emotion? Do you make a really weird piece and see how the audience reacts? What kind of pieces create an emotional response?
​Time to do some art research.

I fear a lot of things.  
I fear that my work will not be good, great, or even near extraordinary. I aim to be extraordinary. I want to be inspirational. I want to be on the same level as Vincent Van Gogh. 
If you notice, there are several quotes by him on this page. He inspires me so much. His artwork is beautiful, despite being depressed and psychotic. Not only that, though. He had so many people despise him as well and he grew up not conforming. He was an anomaly. His parents loved him and yet, he continued to be destructive. They sent him away to boarding school and they gave him affection, and yet, he fought it (well, his parent's "affection" is questionable). He only kept a close relationship with his brother Theo who didn't wish to change him, but rather, understand him.
We connect in that way, I guess.
But back on topic, I want to be the person people look up to in art. Who see my love and passion and want to become. As egotistic as that sound, it is not meant in that way. I want my work to inspire another young human to be nothing but great. 
Also, I want to know my work meant it had that potential. It had that potential for people to love.  Who doesn't want people to see their work nothing less than perfect? Even if it isn't, my dream is to know that finally, I can be happy because my hard work meant it was all for something. 
But I'm scared that it won't be. Im scared that I am nothing more than mediocre. 
I fear that I will always be, just the student artist and nothing beyond a couple of painting sales. 
I fear no one will know my name and who I am.
I fear that I will leave no impact. 
I fear, that I am nothing but normal.